I just tonight realized that my web log is the perfect place for something I’ve decided I’m going to start doing: making notes each time I notice myself feeling an emotion.
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A Very Cool “Reason To Be”
I was chatting with a friend online today, and she said something that just felt right. She agreed to let me quote it, so here you go:
I’ve come to the conclusion that the point of being alive (for me, at least) is to be known and know other people as deeply and real-ly as possible.
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It’s NOT Self-Damning
I had another realization before I got up this morning, and I want to share it.
As a total aside, I didn’t realize until today how much agreement I have with Penn Jillette. I really need to listen to and read more of what he’s said publicly about atheism. He has a talent for explaining things in a way that’s simultaneously easy-to-understand, compelling, and non-judgmental.
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Individual versus structural racism
I read this post tonight, and it does a pretty good job of explaining something I’ve tried to describe before.
Here’s two very relevant quotes:
A fundamental, but very challenging part of my work is moving white people from an individual understanding of racism — i.e. only some people are racist and those people are bad — to a structural understanding.
The two most effective beliefs that prevent us (whites) from seeing racism as a system are:
- that racists are bad people, and
- that racism is conscious dislike.
I’ve written before that discrimination doesn’t start with people using fire hoses on each other. Bad intent isn’t a necessary condition for the existence of racism (or sexism, or any other kind of discrimination).
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Ringo
Dave Grohl on Ringo Starr (from a Facebook video):
I mean, honestly, if you’re a drummer, and you can do this: *plays a simple beat on the low tom* and have people dancing, *chuckle* you’re a fuckin’ badass.
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The anticlimax
If you read my previous post here, you might be waiting on the “big reveal” that I strongly alluded to. I’m sorry, but I’ve decided it’s not going to happen. Drop me an email if you’re curious, and if I know you, I’ll almost certainly share what I was talking about. The info isn’t exactly a secret, anyway, and I think anybody can find it if they dig enough. However, I’ve decided that putting up multiple signs (bearing my name) pointing to it isn’t the best idea. I don’t know of any specific reasons to be worried, but there’s no need to “tempt fate” (especially given how many places I syndicate this web log). 🙂
At any rate, my self-confidence is now working well enough (and regularly enough) that I’m realizing more often that my choices are just that: mine. As I told a friend recently, I need to start owning my choices (instead of depending on the validation of others… though, it’s fun to see it when it happens *grin*).
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My latest realization
I’ll go ahead and warn you now that there’s info that I start to reveal about myself in this post that people who have known me for years don’t know.
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Brief moments
I’m having a moment of calm and clarity tonight, and I wanted to share it. Unlike what one of my friends seems to have believed of my previous behavior (and admired me for it), it’s not that I don’t care what others think about me. Far from it, actually. I think that some of the thoughts I’ve shared have made it pretty clear that I actually care a lot what people think about me. Times like right now, though, make it clearer to me that I’m simply very careful about who I allow close to me. With one very notable exception, my judgment on such matters is usually quite good. 😉
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Too long for a tweet
A friend tweeted a link to something, and one of the items felt like it would be applicable to my situation if it was modified. Unfortunately, just sharing the modified item by itself would almost certainly make people feel guilty and would also appear ungrateful toward the many people who have helped me.
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Legacy on TechOps
You know, it really shouldn’t be any surprise to me that DragonCon TechOps appears to be about the best shot for me to get back somewhere close to where I was. As I sit here tonight, I once again find myself thinking about how proud I am that I (and “my” room staff) were pretty early in the path for a number of staffers who have gone on to have fairly important positions. What brought it to mind for me tonight was noticing that one of those people from my “legacy” is now listed as having the night-time equivalent of my pre-wreck job: day-time lead for one of the truly large hotel ballrooms that we manage.
The other thing that this helps get through my thick skull is that one of the best ways to truly start feeling better about myself as a person is to be able to point to someone else who started out working for me (after the wreck) and be able to nod and say, “Look at what I helped do.” Building a legacy I can be proud of… I really think that’s how I’m most likely to “get my groove back.” 🙂