Something that’s so clear to me sometimes seems like pure fantasy at other times, and I think that right now I understand. Because of that, I think it’s critical that I write this now. For me, words are so powerful, that things that I’m feeling are simply not real unless I can explain them with words.
This morning, the words are describing a concept that’s pretty much obvious to people that know me. I’ve had a crisis of confidence for something like six years now, and it’s at the base of pretty much all my problems. Paradoxically, this crisis of confidence is the very thing that keeps me from truly believing that it’s the real “root” of my issues. The crisis is basically “protecting itself”.
I’m already beginning to lose the “edge” of feeling that was driving this, so I’m not going to be able to finish writing about it in this post. Heck, I’m probably not even going to be able to really get started. What I’ve done is added a new tag (“crisis of confidence”) that will allow me to write more later, and the tag will tie all those posts together.